It ain’t over but… This is a crazy week. I’ve been working. I had 1 audition for a print ad. I hate model auditions. I want to act. And one very important call back for a movie role. Gosh do I hope I get that. I thought I’d be playing a gay guy (not a stretch) who gets dumped (eh). So my agent calls me to tell me of the call back, faxes me the sides and lo and behold, I get to the audition and they want me to audition for the lead! A bigger part. And I am not prepared. Through some mis-communication between my agent and the casting director I was told I was again reading for the co-star/love interest. Damn! So I walk in and I’m told (in front of the producers) to read for Che, the lead. “Um mm… I’m here for Tony.” “No, we want you for Che.” “Do you need some time to prepare?” One of my acting coaches once told me if this ever happens do the reading cold, right then and there. If you stink then it could be perceived as “Oh he just got the script”, but if you take time with it and stink then you just reek. So I did my best and hopefully it was enough. My face was good and so was my outfit. Let’s hope that helps. The thing is I could do this part. I am this guy. I’d be playing a clothing designer who decides he’s not gay after all. I mean I have had those moments where I wish I could not be gay. I think all gay men have them. Life would be much easier. Who would choose to have people hate you who don’t even know know you?

Speaking of hate it has come to my attention (through friends @ my forum) that there are people actively trying to close down my site. Normally I ignore ignorance. But this was so blatant and mean-spirited… It seems when I sent out a Merry Xmas/Happy New Year greeting some people received it and my good tidings pissed them off. How sad and horrid do you have to be for a wish of good will to inspire anger? Let me go further: I sent a Merry Xmas wish to all the subscribers @ my forum. That means you had to have gone through the process of joining my forum. You had to find my site, fill out a form and join. Voluntarily. Now a few people who willingly joined have come up with the idea of accusing me of spamming (which is a lie) in order to try to get my web host to shut down my forum. These are probably the same people who during Big Brother 6 called and wrote letters to Maggie’s hospital and Eric’s firehouse trying to get them fired from their jobs. These are the people who took the time out of their “lives” to start an on-line petition to have me removed as the host of House Calls (which only helped cement my position). Why? Because I suggested some viewers were going too far with their hate of the BB6 cast. It seems I was right. If you have nothing better to do than post mean things on the net about people you don’t know then you need to get a life. There are charities that need assistance. There are people in need of our help, not just money. The time spent in front of that screen could be spent teaching a child to read. But instead you sit @ home and start petitions? Or you spend hours finding out where someone you never met, who did nothing to you personally, someone who doesn’t know you exist, works and try to hurt them by trying to get them fired? And I suppose you think that the on-line friends you have who enable your bad behavior are also sane? You all need help. My suggestion? Hate on me all you want. I don’t know you. You don’t exist to me past the end of this post. The next time you feel the need to hate, donate money in my name to Project Angel Food or the National Aids Fund. These are the charities I work closely with. They each do amazing work. And I guarantee you will feel better and more useful than sitting at home typing mean things and putting hate into the cosmos. Because it comes back around. Meanness may seem funny in the moment but what you sew you reap. This is your moment in time to do something amazing. Something constructive that is bigger than yourself. Bigger than the show you watch. Or the site where you post. Do it.

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